Tuesday, September 18, 2007

It's Early

Bub was up several times during the night, and between times I lay awake agonizing or fell asleep long enough to have strange nightmares in which I wandered through crowded rooms clutching only a cushion and a blanket for clothing, or belatedly slathered sunscreen on my children's sunburnt backs while the skin peeled off in my hands. (I hastily patted it back into place).

Just before six, Bub woke up screaming, his nose completely clogged by a bad cold. He's efficiently spooning Honey Nut Cheerios into his mouth right now, feeling better now that he's upright, as people with bad colds sometimes do. (After hubby poured the bowl of cereal out, he looked up with an enchanting smile and said, "Can I have some beautiful milk?")

As it stands, we're still going for the evaluation - but the day has barely started and already I'm leaking tears.

23 comments:

Jenifer said...

It must be in the air, Rosebud was up and down all night with her newly acquired cold. She is not going to school today and it is her birthday so she is very disappointed.

I did the same thing you did lay in bed wanting to sleep, having strange dreams (laced with Heros themes) only to be woken up again by a little voice saying she didn't want a stuffy nose anymore.

Bub sounds like he is no worse for wear despite his night, but if you feel anything like me right now, YOU do. I wish I could take away the fog of tiredness and anxiety you feel. I hope you can muster the energy for the evaluation today and I hope it gives you some more insight into your sweet little boy.

I will be thinking of you today and wishing you good luck that all goes well.

dawn224 said...

I'm sending good thoughts your way....

Karen said...

Things like bad colds, bad sleep and big days should really not all happen to a person at the same time, but they inevitably do. I'm sorry things are so out of sorts this morning: perhaps some beautiful tea and a beautiful muffin en route to the evaluation will fortify you for what's ahead - I'll add to that my prayers and wishes for strength today, as well as more insights into little Bub.

nowheymama said...

Things always seem worse when you haven't had a good night's sleep.

I hope everything goes well.

"beautiful milk" *sniff*

Sober Briquette said...

I'll be thinking of you. The waiting is almost over, and soon there will be the doing, which is usually easier, no matter what it entails.

Gwen said...

Oh! I hope you manage to get through this day with grace and strength.

DaniGirl said...

Ugh, my heart goes out to you. Courage, my friend.

Kyla said...

Oh B&P! It is just an appointment and the specialist is just a person. (scary know-it-all-person in a white coat? maybe, but still just a person) Whatever you hear or don't hear, the Bub you leave the house with this morning will be the Bub you come home with. Nothing about these appointments changes that. You guys will do fine. You'll survive it. And then this portion is over.

Give yourself a nice big treat after it is over. And take the Pie's hat with you...so you can have the weight of someone's thoughtfulness right there in the waiting room. Because in spirit, we are all sitting there with you.

slouching mom said...

Oh, no. Ben also has a vile cold, which, like Bub's, is better when he's upright. But Ben's old enough to have Sudafed without it causing all kinds of strange behavioral tics and hyperactivity to boot, and the medicine helps.

I will be thinking about you today.

A Whole Lot of Nothing said...

I, too, have a sicky that I spent the majority of last night "sleeping" next to. Fever, cough, blech.
Good luck today!

b*babbler said...

Good luck with the appointment today. At least the endless, prickly anticipation is over. At the end of it, Bub will still be beautiful sweet Bub, your Bub, and no label, diagnosis, or plan of action will change that.

I'll be thinking of you.

Julie said...

I hope that today's evaluation gives you the answers you're seeking and helps relieve the anxiety you've been feeling.

Beck said...

I'll keep you and Bub in my prayers today.
Everyone in my house is vaguely under the weather - runny noses, low fevers - and I actually kept the Girl home yesterday, but felt disgruntled about it because she wasn't anywhere near full-fledged SICKNESS.

Veronica Mitchell said...

Lots of people rooting for you here.

Lawyer Mama said...

Good luck today. I'll be thinking of you.

Magpie said...

Thinking of you and Bub. I hope things went well.

Swistle said...

Best wishes for a stressful event. Hope everything goes in such a way that you look back on it with satisfaction.

Christina said...

I hop everything goes as it should today. I'm anxious to hear the details.

Patois said...

Poor boy. Poor you. But good you for putting the skin back in place.

kittenpie said...

Ugh. Tonight, prop him up on a fwe extra pillows for better drainage.

bren j. said...

It's amazing what a bowl of cheerios can accomplish.
Hope your feeling better soon!

Catherine said...

Oh..

I wish I could hug you both.

Marie said...

You poor thing... I commisserate with you. )= There's nothing like trying to make it through a difficult day after a terrible night of sleep.