Friday, September 11, 2009

Pride and Joy

I am acutely aware, sometimes, of just how much mental real estate is taken up by worry and anxiety over Bub. Before his first day of Grade One last week, I was counting down the days with equal parts excitement and dread. Pie's first day of junior kindergarten, on the other hand, snuck up on me, lost in the shuffle of her first days in her new day-care situation and my first day of classes. I actually had to remind myself last night that she would be going to kindergarten today, and I would have completely forgotten about her special apple dress if she hadn't remembered for me.

It's not entirely my fault. Friday is a silly day for a first day of school, and with Pie's first day falling a full ten days after Bub's, I just haven't been able to sustain the excitement. Those factors aside, though, the real issue here is that I know Pie is going to be fine. She's a shy girl, and in a new situation she is inclined to appear silent and morose. But she's not anxious or unhappy while in that state: she just prefers to keep a careful eye on things from the sidelines. I've never had a single complaint about her behaviour from other caregivers - she reserves her angry, controlling, bossy, and tantrum-throwing behaviour for me. She has had a year to watch her brother go off to kindergarten and she knows the drill. She is ready for this. She will be fine.

So it was almost an afterthought this morning when I snapped these few photos:


Portrait of a four-year-old who is TOTALLY READY for junior kindergarten.


Who is that matronly woman between a concerned Bub and a momentarily clingy Pie?


Portrait of a four-year-old who has located her best friend and is TOTALLY GOING TO BE FINE.

I don't have a portrait of that matronly woman SOBBING all the way home while singing along with Madonna's "Like a Prayer" on the radio. But I'm pretty sure she was crying because she's just so happy and proud.

17 comments:

Gwen said...

That first picture is pure gold.

Nicole said...

Oh, she's precious! I love the apple dress.

Omaha Mama said...

Oh. That apple dress. I want one.
:0)
Our little guy had his "first" day of preschool at the church where he's gone to daycare, Sunday School, and church since age 4 months. I didn't have my camera on his FIRST day and felt bad. Then realized I'll just take one any old day. Which is not great. Considering the scrapbook page in honor of his sister's first preschool day.
Your kids are adorable, so are you. Matronly is the new HOT.

mayberry said...

Happy, proud, and not at all matronly!

Lady M said...

Gorgeous! All three of you.

Kyla said...

She is so cute (and looks so much like Bub)! I hope she had a great day!

Momish said...

She is so adorable and getting so big! They are both perfect, no wonder you are so proud.

kgirl said...

Better than my existential crisis. They are both so adorable, and I cannot - CANNOT - believe that these (our) kids are in kindergarten already. Whoa.

p.s. who gets to take credit for Pie's unbelievable hair?

Bea said...

kgirl - I've been thinking the same thing with all those first-day-of-JK posts yesterday. The hair comes straight from her daddy.

Karen said...

Bea - I could have written this about sending Theo to preschool last week. I too barely remembered the camera & had to rush back in the house. He was, as expected, fine & a delight to the teachers to have a three year old who did not cry upon his mommy's sudden departure.
love the curls. she is Henry's curly hair-mate from Canada. Woot for not having to wash too often!

painted maypole said...

what an adorable big girl (and an adorable mom, too!)

Bon said...

she's beautiful. they're beautiful.

Mad said...

Look at her so happy and confident in that apple dress! She is divine and, yes, she will be fine.

Mad said...

Can I add that M is increasingly concerned about what she wears and how that fits into the social/self-esteem picture. I'm kinda alarmed by it on one hand but think it somewhat unavoidable on the other. Would Pie have been fine if she hadn't been able to find the apple dress do you think?

Bea said...

Mad - It's important to Pie to wear colours/outfits that she likes, but I don't think she has graduated yet to wearing clothes to impress others. It's pure self-assertion at this point. The biggest confidence booster for her is one friend/brother she can stick to. A group of friends is not nearly as good as one special designated friend. So she seems more comfortable in her kindergarten class, where she has a "best friend" than in her day-care situation where she knows lots of kids from last year's day-care. There, she is observing a policy of NEVER SPEAKING to the adults in the room. She will occasionally nod in response to their questions, but never speak.

Beck said...

They are lovely.
My Baby is VERY PRECISE about what she will and will not wear: yes to dresses and skirts, no to pants, yes to pinks and purples, no to blue - it's funny.

She could not BELIEVE that she wasn't going to Pre-K, but with her celiac disease and the non-stop screaming Pre-K teacher? mmmph.

DaniGirl said...

*sniff* Love the pix and the captions with equal enthusiasm.

My middle son, the five year old, is conscious of dressing to impress his peers. It flabbergasts me. The oldest is ambivalent and the youngest would run naked if I let him.